I thought I had pre-paved a happy-go-lucky attitude towards being a mother. I had intended to let my son, Lucky, follow his own path and my job was to get out of the way. Ahem! Well, my little controller side came out in full force in ways I had not expected.
I started out by trusting that Lucky would find his own sleeping pattern. That didn't work. So, when he was four months old I swung to the opposite side of the issue. My child would forever more be on a sleeping schedule. This potentially could've worked if I were more relaxed about it. But I wasn't. I was in huge conflict with my mate, Steve, about my schedule and method of putting Lucky to bed.
My mate was totally at ease with his method of rocking and walking Lucky to sleep. He didn't care if the process took five minutes or an hour. He also wasn't caring if Lucky got his two naps a day or ten to twelve hours of sleep each night. I, on the other hand, hated walking him for long periods of time. It hurt my shoulders and I was bored stiff. And I was being very rigid and watchful about how many hours he slept. A recipe for disaster!
One day, after trying to get Lucky down for an hour for his morning nap, I began to cry. Why was this so hard?! My answer came back loud and clear. I was making it hard. I needed to put Lucky down in a way that worked for me. My friend and coach, Greg, also coached me into the truth. I know how to put Lucky down to sleep.
This was a revelation! I had been making up that I didn't know how to do it. My mom and Steve were the only ones in my mind that knew how to get Lucky to sleep without tensing up. Okay, so I was the problem here, not Steve. We could each follow our path of least resistance. The key was trusting that I knew how to do it.
I've since used this perspective whenever I perceived that I was in over my head in my business. I just keep telling myself, "Jeanna, you know how to do this." And, I do. It's a statement that I hold as the truth when I think it. Then it becomes my reality.
Is there something you want that you've been telling yourself you couldn't manifest because you just didn't know how to do it? Begin playing with the idea that you actually do know how to do it. Start fresh today and don't pay attention to your history with this topic. Today can be the day you turn it around.